I see people being friendly to me or me being friendly to them. But even then the people that i am most close in doesn't seem to have a good understanding of me. I live the life in the way i wanted..Sometimes for sake of living...sometimes to achieve something but the point is i am still here in this world with no one being able to understand me in the way i AM.
Later sometime i feel that i am being so selfish about me, trying to think why no one understands me rather than why i am not understanding anyone.Being selfish according to me is being like a king yourself. But when i realise you cant be a king without people in your country it strikes me that i am wrong in what i describe.
I lost my relations,my friends,caretakers,,,,almost everyone who thought i am good. Because they got to know that i am selfish.Even now instead of realising my mistake and changing my attitude and get back to them.I am trying to stay away from them,,tough i know i cant stay away forever...now i am making new friends with the same old way of suppressing my selfishness....Why i am like this ,,i question a thousand times to myself...instead of answering i just postpone it saying i will be ok in sometime.
What makes me shy away from these people,,is it that i need to ask "SORRY" to them??????....now common ...my status or pride is nothing without these people around me.....Now i make a decision whatever may come i will be back with complete change of what i am,,removing the selfish part of me..and get back all those i have lost in 2007....
I don’t wait for a New Good Beginning rather I create a Beautiful Beginning
It’s Now or Never!!!!!!!
1 comment:
First and foremost, neat write up.. brings out the deep dark self in me...
thanks for stopping by at my page..
To get back to wat you have said in this post.. all of us are not just kings and queens, we are gods...
There is always a part in us seeking the shadows of people we love and who love us. There is always a part of us that desperately wants to be accepted, acknowledged.
Don't you think great emperors wanted the same? Alexander wanted it, Ashoka wanted in both in the wealthy kingdom and in the religious spectra!!
The secret here is not in understanding others or in being understood. Its about admiring everything. Learn to admire that people are unable to understand you. Learn to appreciate that everyone around us want to be understood just like u and they also think that we don't understand them.
Live life to the fullest. Don't loose friends or love or anyone just b'coz u think they din't understand u.. or u din't understand them...
Just sit back and enjoy everybit of it good or bad... it works for me!! :)
keep writing!!
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